Counseling/ Training/ And a lovely one

Posted by Dennis Ng , Sunday, August 23, 2009 1:36 PM

ahr... just woke up from some sleep, still tired.. feeling the ache all over from the exercise, n of cos hunger. haha.

well... ytd had my last session of counseling class. I've really learn so much about inner wounds and about myself. Considering that i was aborted twice and survived, i wonder if the sense of rejection had remained in me since in the womb. Further more i am a 2 months premature 1.8kg baby where i was kept in a oxygen tube for 1 month. Where i was kept away from mum and dad for so long... What did it resulted in me today? I seem to have survive many times from death. Had God plan it to be?

Without that kind of early bondings with them, No wonder i grew up with my own thoughts, own plans, own ways, hardly get any advise or suggestions from my parents. And also Probably why since sec sch i always wanted to marry early and love my wife to be... Maybe a deeper need of intermacy and bond. Haha... i'm waiting for my personal counseling sessions... i am eager to know myself more.

Had a good gym ytd too, and a good run from cck to jurong east today. =p and i am still gaining weight!!! Ai yo yo... i'm going to loose the bets!! to kevin... ezra and and... the one i need to treat a big one!!! LOL ... die die... panic liao. Haha... must train harder!! BUT I TRAIN DAMN HARD LE LA~~~ woot woot! gogogo!!! ( i got a hoola hoop to train at home =p)

beside my wall outside the door she pass
the loveliest, daintiest flower that peeps the grass
A sweetbrier rose!

Desert Rose i gave to, shared with me
accept thy life and live with it
plan the future walking thru it
keeping positive growing fit

her fur like a beautiful tiger
an apple of my eye
active outings all day long
sweet lovely smiles i fond

so far i haven got a chance to know her more
though i am seeking to understand more
being online really gets bored, esp when, MT is not there at all
i laugh my heart out, asking since when i fall (in love?)!!!

several attempts i fail them all
even to introduce Him i couldnt LO!
so i seek Him again and ask wisdom for
Maybe Maybe ....... hm..

It matters not how the battle goes,
The day how long;
Faint not! Fight on!
Tomorrow comes the song~!

An unknown fear that creeps in
to reveal thy heart rejections be
knowing and sharing thy strongest is
but ugly ugly within sinful me

Knowing some had also fall
to those sweet lovely smiles
that captivated them all?!
Seeking the inner beauty i gently fall...