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Posted by Dennis Ng , Monday, October 26, 2009 4:20 PM

I read thru someones blog today... it has existed since 12 April 2008 till recently... i read i feel i ponder and i think.... why is life as it is? Fears... loneliness... sadness... lost... confuse... hope... deception... friends... family... love... pains... mistakes... why are they all part of life? What fixs a persons character? What is the basis of ones life?

She always started with a very excited heart, and chances a very idealistic person. Which ends up, hurt, disappointment fears and dependency. Because reality is cruel and practical and a total difference compared to a fairy tale story. The world is ugly.

Posts from the beginning shows, and the journey tells... some months were gone.... heart-aching periods.. The current is the result, and there is more to come. Lessons learn, life remains? Or has it change? Whats innocent? Whats pure? Isnt the unpure from the pure? Isnt destruction done to the constructed? How would ones life turn out to be in the end? I ponder i think i feel... hm...

Friends will betray friends...
Love will bring pain and suffering...
Wishes and reality doesn't come together...

How tricky a relationship can be, it always seems promising... sweet... great... but sadly only a handful turns out to be a peaceful ending. Because everyone takes love and relationship for granted. It requires time, maturity, friendship, trust, forgiveness, love, care, sensitivity, partnership, communication, compatibility, agreeing to disagree, differences, expectations. Its a whole lot of skills required... its not easy at all. I've failed over and over again, and its a forever learning journey.

And i realize a heart of a perfectionist, push by the burdens one not meant to carry, Is miserable.
And why does 1 turn to all things, career, work, study, pleasing everyone by being a good person... why? Could it a escape route, a hiding path, a cover up or a lost of identity? Therefore and hence, its man centered. Its pride. One can be strong, can be powerful, can do many things and even accomplish great things on earth.... Vanity vanity vanity, in the end it all returns to nothing. How empty, how empty, how empty...

There is no judgment here, but it saddens my heart. How many have lived in vain? Many... I am put into deep tots...

Is it real or is it not? Is it alive? Or its empty?
The way that can be exp is not true, the world can be constructed is not real, the way manifest all that would happens and may happen. The world that represents all that exist and may exist.

The way is unlimited and is natural... Its resources never runs dry. And thats where life is...
From Scripture:
²But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.

³And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.

This is hard to understand. He who applies have received life, but he who only knows receives nothing.

I am or am i not thinking too much? Because i care for you.... thats the ans.