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Posted by Dennis Ng , Thursday, November 5, 2009 8:54 AM

i once tot wad i desire was wad i really want
to find out..
its not wad i really hope for...
Then Once again when i tot i know wad i am going for...
End up its not really true after all...

Within the deep valleys of the heart, it is really difficult to know whats deep inside. Its hidden, its dark. Hence making it hard to be true to ourselves and desires.

I am neither lost nor confuse.. maybe tired. Not interested... not in the mood. Maybe not much hope for something really sincere, something true.. Accepting the world without much hope for good lasting values and relationships.

This is weird, i actually lack drive and motivation to go out for datings!! LOL.... aiyo.. i'm so drive by emotions. Haha... guess i am going against my nature a bit too much. Need a break to reflect le.... i need personal time. Perhaps i'm bored as well... lonely? Apart from Kevin, no one can understand my thoughts, and feelings. I seek to be known, but its tough. And Kevins having a hard time too.. esp after the believers music thing.

Hm... probably i need to know a very sensitive gal? Someone thats clever as well, can deal well with emotional people. Haha... What Joanne say maybe right, i remember wad she said to me recently. You need to go out with a older lady.. i guess she means mature and sensible. Hard la... lol... good girls are already lacking in singapore... Godly girls are rarer to come by. Well... suitable partners will be cool... but being the right person, and a good man, a Godly man is more impt ba. heehee.. i will continue to seek to become a better man.. or wolf~~ howl~~

well.. maybe i should meet up with Joanne again... haha. She is so talkative, since i so bored must as well get her to talk more? haha... well.. alright see how ba...

Oh ya... actually i realize Nalyn is kinda fun to talk to... she is so... =_= hm.... how to put it... cheeky? Playful? LamE??? LOL... ya ... fun and entertaining la.... and like wad she say.. a bit fake... kaoz... must learn to be upfront ma!! Just say those words that really comes from the heart!! Just do it!!! Guess will feel less miserable ba. gagaga~~ ok thats me =p oh man... i wish she could befriend me a little deeper... i need that entertainment!!! AHR.... i hate boring stuffs!