LOVE?

Posted by Dennis Ng , Monday, January 4, 2010 4:39 PM

i got a little impatient with dating recently, maybe i am really eager to see Madeleine... esp after not being able to meet her twice when she fall sick...i felt worst than i expected. Haha... i didnt know i desire to see her so much... gosh... i'm really so in love already... i felt almost like crying inside... i nv had dated someone or fell for someone, not from the same sch or church whom i can see daily. In a way, Madeleine is uniquely the first time i fall for in such a manner, 8 years younger not and not being able to meet as often.

I hope we can have dating this Thursday night and a short while this sat... hm... hopefully.. sat will be also a short time for me and her.. but i guess its ok. I will put aside all other programs. Cos its worth it.. =p

So as i ask why is it so hard to fall in love few months ago, i take it back now. Rather... why is being in love is bittersweet and its nv enough? =D

Think for the coming months also not easy to meet de... nor it will be easy for her to even come my church... just today already kena lecture by Sharon Sam for dating a non christian and quite a fierce one, i dunno how many more will come... guess they are going to put some pressure on me or judge me to the lowest. Well... they have the right to do so, my little love for Madeleine has become a sin ba... its a pretty big sacrifice. people like PJ and some others questions the possibility, some say face the consequences, some say this some says that, wadever it is, only Christian comments and put down with judgment.


hm.. haiz.. i wonder who can share my burdens... God, are you going to forsake me as well? i dont know man... but i have been praying that if possible... can u reveal yourself to her, and make yourself known that she knows the You are God. I dont think my life is going be so smooth sailing in such a way but... nevertheless it is a little selfish but sincere wish and hope. That her salvation maybe save, not just because i love her and by no means i am lying. Even for her family members as well...

Any more emotions that goes deeper.. i think the writings will come flowing once again. Haha..