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Posted by Dennis Ng , Friday, December 25, 2009 5:03 PM

I'm home all day today haha... just slacking... tmr go malaysia play paint ball~~ YAY~~

hm... now seems like i have started to develop some feelings for someone. Though i can yet confirm the result. Haha.. seems like because i am consider the Bei Dong kind plus i am more of a ED than a CD.

I wont say i dont feel anything for Yvette, but she simply dont learn to even be a simple friend of mine. And that is very sickening. Getting hostile for all the stupid reasons, then get friendly with me, then get hostile again for all the funny tots she has in her mind. =_=" guess i just have to be patient.

Madeleine certainly is very sweet and fun to accompany with. =) I kinda fell for her le.. well... but time is needed to tell if the dateing can go on a not. Guess i am going to remain single for awhile. Since she walked into my life, i kinda nv date other people le. Wonder if its a good thing or bad thing. It would be good if i open up a bit... unless its a firm that i wanna enter into a relationship. I need to know her a little more. Hm... i shouldnt stop obervering her. But i guess she also dunno if she can last a not. Its going to be sad to know that she cant... =\ well... if it happens, accept it lo... i decided to try so cant blame anyone too. and i also dont like the church girls anyway, they are so fierce and judgemental... stuck up at times too. As it is right now, i believe that dating Madeleine is going to be fun and enjoying. SO JUST ENJOY IT BA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOWL~~~~~ weee~~~ hahaha... why think so much right?

Gosh i'm going a little bit far already... if the church people knows about it, i'm going to be reprimended again. =p and hopefully i can forget about yvette too. But i wonder if it works... thankfully Yvette nv cling on me, if not i totally cannot move on. Haha... i have to be strong, after so many years of pain, i need to learn and grow. Being firm is not easy for me, i realize lately i am getting too attach n may get dependent on relationships. Which i must not... its not healthy. I must remember all the conseqences that have been brought to others and myself. History must not repeat. Jia you!

hm.... well... i'm losing focus!! I need to relook into my priorities and my own life. The new year is coming, time to get back on shape.. though i haven started anything yet. Haha... i will i will... i need to get on to some fun in life. Life is always interesting and fun, and challenging. MUAHAHA~!