A past retrieved poem

Posted by Dennis Ng , Tuesday, May 7, 2013 8:09 AM

 I notice her growth along the years after the separation, more able to handle society, media and personal privacy. I feel happy for her. Sometimes i still think about it, about the past. Something special that made my life really different until today. I always thought a love like that would never come by ever again, I told God i gave up on everything and just draw near to him. If i began to love again, will it become another punishment? Here is something cute she once wrote that i almost cannot remember until i browse through it.

I am attracted to you
like an electron to a proton
together we form an ionic bond
though we are opposite charge ions
i am drawn towards you
our love is unique as an orbital
for only two electrons can fill this space.
As my love for you increases
my energy level rises
i am in this excited state
increasing the tendency to form a chemical bond.
I was an element
it took you to make me a compound substance
falling in love with you is chemical reaction
which cause my love for you to grow
ours is an exothermic love
each giving of love not just absorbing it.
Sometimes you do something especially nice
which speeds up the chemical process
like a catalyst in my increasing love for you
i realise we have our inhibition periods
and sometimes i am selfish enough
to be an endothermic reaction
only absorbing your love.
The feeling i have for you is so intense.
I cannot be measured by kilo joules.
Often I have to make a qualitative elementary analysis
to understand and love you more
but i don't expect to know your empirical formula
when you are gone
i am a noble gas
an inert substance
when i am without you
the world seems still
and i am at equilibrium.~ Madelene Ang